It's going to get better . . .

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind" - Dr. Seuss.

If you check my status on Facebook, you know that this has been one of my favorite quotes recently. It reminds me to just be myself because people are either going to like me or not like me and there is nothing I can do to change their mind. I am just me!

Recently it seems as if nothing has been going my way. First it was always being sick to my stomach, then finding out I had to have surgery, followed by a break up, and topped off with the realization that I would spend over half of my year working out of town. This seems like enough to make me crawl in my dark closet and just hide out until 2010 when I could have a clean start, but with the help of some very good friends (love y'all), I have decided to attack all of these things head on. Why wait until 2010?

The surgery fixed my stomach and has made me full 100% better. It is amazing how one extremely inflamed gall bladder can make you feel so crappy. I signed myself up for the work travel when I decided to do oil & gas and agreed to go to Midland. Who knew it would require me to spend so much time there? I will just have to take it one day/week/month at a time.

That leaves me to the break-up . . . Break-ups are never easy, especially when it was not your call. I won't lie and say it hasn't been hard, because it has been. It came a few days after he returned from overseas and things seemed fine. It happened the day before Thanksgiving and five days before my surgery. It happened via a text message, which seems pretty standard for our communication. There was no conversation as to what really happened or if I did something wrong. It was over, just like that. I have been trying to make sense out of all of it, but have come to realize that I will never understand it and that he will never be able to explain it to me. Every relationship teaches us something about ourselves and what we want from another person. We tried the not talking, and then I gave up because I still wanted to know what was going on in his life. Now, I have realized you have to take some time a part because every time we talk and he shows some emotion I am sucked back in to thinking we can go back to what we had. But we can't; we are over. So to you, sir, I wish you all the best.